“Therefore we do not lose heart.  Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day.  For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all.” 2 Corinthians 4:16-17

I remember the day like it was yesterday.  One of the girls I had been disciplining, meeting with weekly at my house for 5 years, told me she was pregnant.  Not only was she pregnant, but she been lying to me for weeks on end about having sex with another student leader in the group.  

I was crushed.  This young girl represented my biggest investment to the kingdom so far in my ministry “career”.  I had spent hours listening to her, loving her, serving her, driving her places, praying for her, teaching her the Bible.  

In a moment, I saw her life flash before my eyes.  Single parenthood, no college, welfare.  What would the consequences of this decision mean to this young girl?

To be honest, I wasn’t just thinking about her.  I had just as many thoughts about myself  than I had of her and her baby.  I’m a failure, I wasted my time, I can never get those years back.  I had some even darker and uglier thoughts; Urban disciples, Lord?  This will never work!

I realized that while I am discipling this young girl, the Lord is still interested in growing me.  See how quickly I turned to despair!  See how fast I looked at my time as MINE instead of the Lord’s!  See how I quickly assumed that someone else’s choice was my own fault!

Maybe you’ve been in the same place before and received some disheartening news from one of your youth.  Maybe you found out they committed a crime, that they are creeping back into gang life, that they on drugs again, that they are skipping school or lying to their mom.  In the hood, bad news can come from any direction and the news can hit you like an emotional and spiritual freight train.  

No matter how bad the news, remember that the Lord has a work to do in YOU as you pour your life out for others.  No matter how sad the circumstance, remember that God is with you and cares even more deeply about the situation than you do!  More than likely - just like me - you might have some dark and evil thoughts in the midst of bad news.  Let’s take these thoughts to the Lord so he can restore our hope and show us where we still need to grow in trusting Him.

“Let us then approach the throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.”  Hebrews 4:16

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